“Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans.”
~ John Lennon
John Lennon definitely knew what he was talking about when he said this! My life has taken another interesting twist. Back in October I started to get this nagging feeling and a voice in my head about the balance in my life. Specifically, I was starting to feel that my life was not balanced. Prior to leaving my consulting job in 2016, I had been living a life that was predominately work- and business-focused: highly rational and activity driven. With the leaving of that work and moving to Guatemala, my life took a 180 degree turn: my day to day life became much more emotional and inner insight driven and was focused on the spiritual.
I guess you could say that I went from a nearly 100% masculine energy world to a nearly 100% feminine energy world. And what the voice and nagging feeling was telling me was that it was time for me to have more of a 50%/50% balance (recognizing, of course, that the straight 50/50 split wasn’t the goal here and the ratios would move depending on the day and situation). I also started to feel like I couldn’t be as good a coach and shaman without living in both worlds simultaneously.
I decided to be open and curious about how I could do that, and, as often happens, a door was opened for me. I received a message from my old firm asking me to come back. I spent about a month thinking about it, and then, after several conversations with them where we talked not only about the consulting role but also about my shamanism and coaching, I said yes.
So 2019 will be the year that I move back to the United States and bring – and live – this balance in all aspects of my life. I am excited about this opportunity for me to learn how to better do this…and for the opportunity for me (if I’m somewhat successful) to bring the spiritual into the business and the business into the spiritual. While I will miss being in Guatemala all the time, I know in my heart that this is the right thing for me at this time.
There are a lot of things for me to work through, but some of the most important things have already been taken care of: my US home base will be located in Houston, which will make it very easy for me to spend long weekends and vacations at my home in Guatemala. Jaguar, of course, will be coming with me to the United States. And the work I am doing with the Children’s Center and Library in the Guatemala town that I live in can be done via Skype, so I won’t be letting those people down.
I have no idea how this whole thing is going to unfold, but I’m staying open, optimistic and curious to see what happens! For now, I’ve got to get packing!